Holidays..

I'm in holidays.. for one week now. Still I don't feel the heavy stress of mine decreasing. Those are not real holidays. I spend all my time in my room. Paris is 1 hour away at least by car, and whatever, my friends are not in holidays. Why am I stressed.. don't know. I don't have work everyday, I would like though. One would say I barely do anything at all. But I would like to. This stress is worse, it's not a one day of work stress that will go away after work, it's more like a non stop many years long stress going on for... I can't even remember. It became something that follows me everyday, every second, all the time.

I need a radical change of life, because I don't know how long I will bear this one.